This is a post where I’m not quite sure where to start. I’ve had the same page open for a couple of days. I know what I mean, but not what I want to say. So I’ll just start writing about things that have been on my mind. Decisions, what I want out of life, frustration, frustation with myself, anxiety, self-love, self-acceptance, focusing, just doing it.
Right now I’m in Florida working on some things. Getting my health back on track. Refreshing my mindset. And working on things that I’m passionate about. See… I’m the kind of person who will work and work to the point of no break, but what is it that I’m working for? What’s worth my energy? What am I doing? There are so many things that I could do, but it’s important for me to have a focus. And it’s also important to have a break. Some find it in watching their favorite television show, or walking around the block smoking a cigar. One of the ways for me is through cooking, but over the past few months cooking had become a completely practical thing. I didn’t loathe cooking, but it only had a utilitarian purpose. “Make sure I have food for the week,” on repeat–week after week. I think it’s important to have those things in our lives that we do for no useful reason, but just because we simply enjoy them. What may be important to one person, may not be important to the next, but most of us have something in our lives that matters.
My intentions with cooking shifted a little when I started seeing an acupuncturist to treat my heavy hormonal imbalances, severe acne (which I’ve found out is related to a very high amount of testosterone), and other symptoms related to anxiety. I was recommended this book:
Healing with Whole Foods: Asian Traditions and Modern Nutrition by Paul Pitchford
I’ve been genuinely interested in well-being for some years now and am always inquisitive about the “how, what, whens, and whys”. I’ll never cease to learn. Recently, I’ve been incorporating some aspects of Ayurveda, Western medical finds, and Traditional Chinese Medicine moreso into my daily lifestyle to get a better sense of balance. With that I’m going to write a series of posts related to some things I’ve learned, been going through, and what I’ve been doing–the “mindful being” series!
But right now in this post, I want to practice something that I’ve been trying to face my frustrations with, and that is an attitude of gratitude. I know for awhile I’ve been letting myself get so consumed with stress that I forgot that, hey… I’ve got a lot to be grateful for.
I also gave my blog a new look (haven’t touched it since I first started it three years ago). So take a look and let me know what you think. I’d greatly appreciate any kind of feedback!
On another note, I really appreciate the biosphere.
I hope that one day there will be more backyard gardens around, and that people in first-world countries will be more self-sufficient. My parents garden has inspired me to think more about the sun and its energy… how it’s such a life-force. And this food is an energy packed life-force for the earth’s inhabitants. It kind of makes me feel like a warrior.